Looking at my friend, being simple means being happy..
but being simple is not easy especially when one has been through lots in life..
I admire her so much as its easier for her to get over things at times.. whereas i still dwell on it over time n time...

had a chat with some friends, they teased me for being blur n 'toot' at times..
being like this, i often lose out cos others has think ahead of me..

being the stubborn me, believes that "being ignorance is bliss"...
Although this world may be cruel and people are always thinking of how to outdo one other,
i trust that there are still kindness in humane...

I am facing a stuggle within me, i do not know what and whom i can trust... i chose to run away but i also wanna find out the truth but afraid of being hurt again... i am just so afraid..

i guessed my heart has been locked up again... the truth is just too much for me to face...

my life has been pretty occupied with these loved ones~

thanks for being there~ and with more to come! =D

如果再见我　你能说什么
说爱我　或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠　选择不联络
因为我　担心你会听见我　
还那么难过
短讯声在响　凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里　更孤单
一句睡了吗　像你的习惯
这夜晚　为你而混乱
因为对
你我连再见都　说不出口
我想你能懂

i lost my sense of judgement.. i cant tell what is right or wrong anymore.. which is the truth or lie.. which is real or unreal... 在我眼前，一切都是模糊了。。

我的心好痛好痛，比分开还痛。。 这就是我看到和得到的结果吗。。想了很多。。 我已经好累好累了。。 不管结果是如何。。

born on 23 may 1984:

* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* Strong-willed and highly motivated
* Sharp thoughts
* Easily angered
* Attracts others and loves attention
* Deep feelings
* Beautiful physically and mentally
* Firm standpoint
* Easily influenced
* Needs no motivation
* Easily consoled
* Systematic (left brain)
* Loves to dream
* Strong clairvoyance
* Understanding
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck
* Good imagination
* Good debating skills
* Good physical
* Weak breathing
* Loves literature and the arts
* ! Loves traveling
* High spirited
* Spendthrift

how true?....

tearing in my heart as tears wells up in my eyes...

my life is in a mess which i totally have no control of... i hate it as much as i hate myself!!

在我回家的路上，我们的回忆又出现在我脑海里。

经过那些商店，他们都忙着拆新年的雕饰。新年就这样过了，我的生活也不一样了，一切都过去了就如新年。。。

在戏院里，我的身旁已不是你。。
在车上，我的右手边也不是你了。。

希望我能够更坚强去面对将来的一切。。

我学会了一样东西：I was a chapter of your life and now you are on another chapter of life...

我已经不再喜欢看电影了
我已经不再走我们曾经经过的路， 有太多的不再了

因为有太多的回忆，太多的过去，太多的曾经。。
我要学着过自己的生活，没人牵着我的手，保护我，不让我跌倒。。
不再有你在我的生边和我生活的点点滴滴, 不再出国游玩。再也没有所谓的以后和将来了。。

夜晚的我要学着或习惯夜里的孤单平静和寂寞。。

我要学着独立更坚强， 一切都是过去了。。

我只希望你快乐，能找到你的爱，你的幸福，你的快乐和未来。。

here i am, down with flu once again.

been feeling down recently, lotsa stuffs going through my mind~ my career, my life, my future, my dreams.. but to no decision yet.

i met up with two of my besties last weekend~ gernice & christina. it was a long night chat till wee hrs 2am although 3 of us had to work on the following Monday. It was nice catching up with them as we shared our memories, our thoughts & feelings. Each of us had grown alot through life experiences with ups & downs in life. But I am glad that we could still meet up after such a long time.. Counting back, we knew each other since 13 meaning we have known each other for 11 years! still counting on to our friendship years & I am looking forward to this Sun for our outing again!

shall update again... tk care!

thks for all your concerns.. i am fine..

retreating into my corner of thoughts...