thanks to those for their birthday wishes to me!

Yeah.. i am back! i enjoyed myself very much there... hope to stay there as there is no memories... no past memories.. no sad memories... just a fresh new start... how i wish..

now back here.. gt to face all the shit again... dread them.. haiz!

anyway another day for me to rest before i am back to the cruelty of life! hahaa!

我在这两年里过得好累。。累得喘不过气。。好忙忙得吃不下饭。。 终于决定放弃的时候，她让我觉得这里没这么不好。。还是有人情味，这里都有感觉和谈不上的亲情。。

今天我却哭了，发现原来我就只是一个平平凡凡，说来就来， 说走就走的一个人罢了。。。 我的心好伤好伤。。 总相信世界上会有有心人，可是我就只是一个人罢了。。。

在这地方，每一寸地方，每一扇门， 都有我的苦心。。。可是又有谁看到了。。我好难过。。

好难过。。。

i have been feeling down recently due to lots of happenings in my life....

today, i am happy for one of my best friend- Christina Cai. She went to register for her marriage and i am happy that she has found her love one...

To her Hubby: Do treat her good and take care of her or we wun let you off. And pls give her permission to go out with us at times ya.. =P hahaa!

I have been upset at work... feeling the stressed.. especially during this HFMD period. I seek teachers and staffs cooperation to do whatever we can to keep the diease at bay. But I faced uncooperative and irresponsible parents who only care for themselves. I was upset as i feel that it is unfair for my teachers and staffs who have done all their best to prevent the spread of disease. If parents can do their part, we could have done a better job. I voiced my unhappiness to my friends, colleagues and family. Everyone just says, what can you do? you have done your best.. So dun think too much since yours is not the only centre down with it.

Brooding over the issue makes me realise that it does not help, so i wrote in to the papers to voice my concerns out and also doing my social responsiblity as an Early Childhood Educator. I am glad that they actually publish my passage out, reaching out the community and hope parents will realise that they can do their part too...

Hopefully, parents will think about what they can do as a responsible being..

这段时间，或许我做了许多大家都不支持我的选择或决定，可是我还是坚持着。。

或许我真的累了，
累了为别人而活，
累了替别人着想
累了凡事都是为了你们或他们，

这次我选择自私，只为我自己。。。只想让自己活着还有意义；世上还有我的存在。。

我真的好累。。好累。。

回家的路上，我又流泪了。。因该是难过的眼泪吧。。收音机播着“比我幸福”。。就像我的心意。。。 突然好想他们，不知为何。。可能他们陪我快乐，陪我难过吧。。

回到家，看到他们的missed call。。回了电，听到他们熟悉的声音，我又想哭了。。 忍着眼泪。。不哭了。

online 收到了一份surprise... 哈哈。。又哭了。。 是感动的眼泪吧。。 谢谢你！！

好感谢陪伴着我的朋友， 在这些日子让我过得很充实很快乐。。

那颗心，选择不动，或许就不那么伤。。

Looking at my friend, being simple means being happy..
but being simple is not easy especially when one has been through lots in life..
I admire her so much as its easier for her to get over things at times.. whereas i still dwell on it over time n time...

had a chat with some friends, they teased me for being blur n 'toot' at times..
being like this, i often lose out cos others has think ahead of me..

being the stubborn me, believes that "being ignorance is bliss"...
Although this world may be cruel and people are always thinking of how to outdo one other,
i trust that there are still kindness in humane...

I am facing a stuggle within me, i do not know what and whom i can trust... i chose to run away but i also wanna find out the truth but afraid of being hurt again... i am just so afraid..

i guessed my heart has been locked up again... the truth is just too much for me to face...

my life has been pretty occupied with these loved ones~

thanks for being there~ and with more to come! =D

如果再见我　你能说什么
说爱我　或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠　选择不联络
因为我　担心你会听见我　
还那么难过
短讯声在响　凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里　更孤单
一句睡了吗　像你的习惯
这夜晚　为你而混乱
因为对
你我连再见都　说不出口
我想你能懂

i lost my sense of judgement.. i cant tell what is right or wrong anymore.. which is the truth or lie.. which is real or unreal... 在我眼前，一切都是模糊了。。

我的心好痛好痛，比分开还痛。。 这就是我看到和得到的结果吗。。想了很多。。 我已经好累好累了。。 不管结果是如何。。