Love caroline~
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Outlook of life
In life, sometimes it's better not to look at things too clearly; you may see more flaws.. Thus it's better to leave things as it is..
Love caroline~
Love caroline~
Friday, October 15, 2010
love,, pasts.. regrets...life...
My nose was blocked and throat was sore, couldn't sleep well. So i woke up at 5am plus to surf net as usual. I came across a blog where it was about 2 people in love; simple pleasures in life with each other's accompany.
It made me think back about my past relationships, my love journey till today. There were sweet moments with my loved ones which were just so pure and innocent. Without any bad intentions and it started with a simple word: Love. Times were so sweet and wonderful then as it seems that the world just revolves around us. There was no time or space for another person in each other's heart and mind.
Then i met him which i regretted that relationship which lasted for 3 yrs; a total waste of my life but yet I can't do anything because I chose him. Everyone had been telling me not to sank into it but I chose to. Stepping out of it now, it made me realise how ugly this world is; with such bad attitude and outlook in life. That was a total nightmare for me; throwing me into cold water to suffer then back to life, I guessed that was when my perception of love changed. That kinda pure and innocent love which i believed in was all gone. You took away all my trust and faith in love. I was thrown into burden which noone know yet I had to behave like nothing had happened and life still moves on. Till today, i am still stuck at that place, hard to move on...
I am glad to meet my new love who dotes on me. He may not be perfect but I hope he will be true to me because I had been through some which I did not believed that it would happen to me. It was a total shock to me yet I chose to move on because I love him. i do not deny that this path was tough because to forgive and forget is tougher than said.
Trust was broken and had to be earned, Sense of security was lost and required to rebuild again. I don't know how long or how far we can walked together hand-in-hand but i will continue to walk on and choose to believe in you all over again...
It made me think back about my past relationships, my love journey till today. There were sweet moments with my loved ones which were just so pure and innocent. Without any bad intentions and it started with a simple word: Love. Times were so sweet and wonderful then as it seems that the world just revolves around us. There was no time or space for another person in each other's heart and mind.
Then i met him which i regretted that relationship which lasted for 3 yrs; a total waste of my life but yet I can't do anything because I chose him. Everyone had been telling me not to sank into it but I chose to. Stepping out of it now, it made me realise how ugly this world is; with such bad attitude and outlook in life. That was a total nightmare for me; throwing me into cold water to suffer then back to life, I guessed that was when my perception of love changed. That kinda pure and innocent love which i believed in was all gone. You took away all my trust and faith in love. I was thrown into burden which noone know yet I had to behave like nothing had happened and life still moves on. Till today, i am still stuck at that place, hard to move on...
I am glad to meet my new love who dotes on me. He may not be perfect but I hope he will be true to me because I had been through some which I did not believed that it would happen to me. It was a total shock to me yet I chose to move on because I love him. i do not deny that this path was tough because to forgive and forget is tougher than said.
Trust was broken and had to be earned, Sense of security was lost and required to rebuild again. I don't know how long or how far we can walked together hand-in-hand but i will continue to walk on and choose to believe in you all over again...
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Thanks for being there for me whenever I am down..
My life has been occupied with work, love and family. I used to wonder what's my goal in life? Previously I wished to set up a centre with my buddies, somehow the wish came true but all came to an halt.. I missed those times with our crazy laughters, tired nights going through portfolios, staying overnights and so on... Time can never be turned back but I do not regret leaving as I have faced a different side of life.. Just that I missed you gals.. Don't know if u gals feel the same but things will nv be the same again.. 最熟悉的陌生人 could be the phrase to describe our friendships. I used to think of them being my Jie Mei when I get married with their blessings.. It's such a wonderful scene.. But now I don't know how it would be like. I don't dare to think abt it but I miss u all alot.
Anyway, I missed my friends' laughters, lame jokes and craziness too.. As we are getting older, one by one settle down with families then with kids.. It's a happy scene yet on the other hand, my parents and family are getting older. Walking behind them, I can see them walking slowly yet trying to keep up with our steps but their hairs are greying and faces wrinkled.
I can't imagine my life without their noises, nagging and quarrels. Somehow all these have become part of my life. We are a conservative family and do not express ourselves readily but I would like to say: I love you mummy and daddy despite my unhappy childhood but aunt and uncle has always been there to pull the bridge between us.
I am getting emo maybe because I am tired. The last episode in my life when I ended my 2009 will always stay with me cos somehow I lost 3 dearest friendship somehow somewhere.... I manage to walk through those saddest moments with my friends like weizhang and weejia who spent the nights counselling and talking to me. Elsa's comforting words helped alot though she was miles away. My aunt and uncle constant calls and concerns to ensure I am alright.
I choose to smile and walk over it but it's always tough whenever I think of them... Misses...
I will choose to end this 2010 with a happy note with my loved ones. Because time is not on my side, I have so much things to do yet so little time...
I missed all those who love me too..
Love caroline~
My life has been occupied with work, love and family. I used to wonder what's my goal in life? Previously I wished to set up a centre with my buddies, somehow the wish came true but all came to an halt.. I missed those times with our crazy laughters, tired nights going through portfolios, staying overnights and so on... Time can never be turned back but I do not regret leaving as I have faced a different side of life.. Just that I missed you gals.. Don't know if u gals feel the same but things will nv be the same again.. 最熟悉的陌生人 could be the phrase to describe our friendships. I used to think of them being my Jie Mei when I get married with their blessings.. It's such a wonderful scene.. But now I don't know how it would be like. I don't dare to think abt it but I miss u all alot.
Anyway, I missed my friends' laughters, lame jokes and craziness too.. As we are getting older, one by one settle down with families then with kids.. It's a happy scene yet on the other hand, my parents and family are getting older. Walking behind them, I can see them walking slowly yet trying to keep up with our steps but their hairs are greying and faces wrinkled.
I can't imagine my life without their noises, nagging and quarrels. Somehow all these have become part of my life. We are a conservative family and do not express ourselves readily but I would like to say: I love you mummy and daddy despite my unhappy childhood but aunt and uncle has always been there to pull the bridge between us.
I am getting emo maybe because I am tired. The last episode in my life when I ended my 2009 will always stay with me cos somehow I lost 3 dearest friendship somehow somewhere.... I manage to walk through those saddest moments with my friends like weizhang and weejia who spent the nights counselling and talking to me. Elsa's comforting words helped alot though she was miles away. My aunt and uncle constant calls and concerns to ensure I am alright.
I choose to smile and walk over it but it's always tough whenever I think of them... Misses...
I will choose to end this 2010 with a happy note with my loved ones. Because time is not on my side, I have so much things to do yet so little time...
I missed all those who love me too..
Love caroline~
Monday, September 27, 2010
When I received the news, I was both delighted and vexed. Delighted because the load has been removed from my shoulder but vexed because I am in such situation. Anyway I am glad with such outcome.
It's has been such a tiring weekend. I've been sleeping through my weekend because of the day of a month. I missed him so much because I been lying on bed with pain. We couldn't spend the weekend happily.
Miss you loads!!
It's has been such a tiring weekend. I've been sleeping through my weekend because of the day of a month. I missed him so much because I been lying on bed with pain. We couldn't spend the weekend happily.
Miss you loads!!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Christina's post birthday dinner & Step Up 3
I had dinner with Christina and Gernice yesterday as Christina's post birthday meal! I was late due to work(as usual)! haha.. sorry to keep you girls waiting. =P We had Dian Xiao Er and the food was yummy compared to the previous time i went with Christina. Sorry for no pics as its all with Gernice. Upload them gal!
After which we walked around and Christina had to leave earlier to meet her hubby up. Left both of us as we wondered around and decided to catch a movie instead of going KTVing... We went to catch STEP UP 3 and the show was fantastic! The dance moves and background were just awesome! There were a few surprising scenes which was like wow! It is a nice entertaining show after a long day at work to enjoy the music + dance!
Woooh.. Me and Gernice were telling each other how good looking Rick Malambri is! haha! even when he wears casually out on the 'street', he just look too handsome to resist!
After which we walked around and Christina had to leave earlier to meet her hubby up. Left both of us as we wondered around and decided to catch a movie instead of going KTVing... We went to catch STEP UP 3 and the show was fantastic! The dance moves and background were just awesome! There were a few surprising scenes which was like wow! It is a nice entertaining show after a long day at work to enjoy the music + dance!
Woooh.. Me and Gernice were telling each other how good looking Rick Malambri is! haha! even when he wears casually out on the 'street', he just look too handsome to resist!
Charming eyes!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Kite flying
Enjoy the kite flying experience! But I am getting soooo tanned！
So chao ta!
Loving the kite flying time with him!
Now looking forward to meeting Christina and gernice as well as our blading session on Sunday!
So chao ta!
Loving the kite flying time with him!
Now looking forward to meeting Christina and gernice as well as our blading session on Sunday!
Monday, July 12, 2010
My Sunday
After watching the Germany vs Uraguay matc, both of us dropped dead till sunday morning 10.30am. As usual, we were thinking what to eat for breakfast or rather lunch..
Seeing the sun so bright and sunny, I suggested to go rollerblading as it was ages since we went rollerblade together; he decided to jog while i rollerblade
Seeing the sun so bright and sunny, I suggested to go rollerblading as it was ages since we went rollerblade together; he decided to jog while i rollerblade
On the way there
loves the blue sky, beautiful clouds~
As I was taking time to warm up, he jogged ahead of me while i was still struggling.. Seeing the crowd, i decided to head back from where we started off. It was fun watching the little ones learning to blade; shared with him that i will encourage my kids to start young than to learn at my age. =)
After change, we were thinking where to have lunch and Ben called to ask whether we wanna watch 'Predator', I said 'okay' and off we headed to Tampines (our usual hunt on weekends).
The movie was so-so only while the ending was lame as expected.. dun waste your $$..
We decided to have Din Tai Fung early as we planned to catch the World Cup finals~ Netherlands against Spain. Got to sleep early~
-Din Tai Fung-
The meal was fulfulling: Fried rice with prawn. Chilli Crab Dumpling, Xiao Long Bao, Suan La Tang and Hong You Chao Shou. These are our must haves!!
Headed home to prepare for sleep but we were engrossed with Discovery Channal: Deadliest Catch till 11pm+ Fell asleep and woke up at 2.30am to catch WC Final.
On a lighter note, my colleagues commented that this boy looks like my bf. Heheee!
what do you say?
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Dinner with his family
Yesterday we went for a family dinner to celebrate his dad's friend birthday. It was at west coast recreation centre which brought back lots of memories.
Those were the sec sch days where the guys go for pool/ billiard while I stood by to watch. It also reminded me of the times where I went to Christina grandma place, my encounter with dialect hokkien. Those were my days around 13 to 16 yrs old.
Back to the dinner, it was quite nice. I had lobster bique, baked cod fish and banana spilt. Forgotten to take pics..
It was such a long time since I ate at jack place. It was our favorite hangout place with my aunt and uncle at the bras basah branch when I was young.
During the dinner, we chatted about current news etc. Then they asked him when is our wedding dinner. His mum casually mentioned that it's good to get married next year and have a dragon baby the following.
Hmm... Everything seem to be rushing. Nowadays topics are about flats, housing, children, marriage etc.. I do wish to settle down with him but talking about practically settling down, I seem afraid. Worried that we cannot cope financially, am I ready to be someone's wife; daughter in law; sister in law or even a mum?
The responsibility is a great commitment for life. Somehow I am withdrawing, afraid that I can't cope. Now this is really sitting on the fence... Hmmm...
Some overdued pics:
My surprise birthday celebration
My birthday presents
Citigem pendant from Angela, Anthony, Edwin and Gerald.
Gucci keychain from Shannon and Ben.
S90 camera from him.
Thanks to all!
Our trip to helix bridge
Those were the sec sch days where the guys go for pool/ billiard while I stood by to watch. It also reminded me of the times where I went to Christina grandma place, my encounter with dialect hokkien. Those were my days around 13 to 16 yrs old.
Back to the dinner, it was quite nice. I had lobster bique, baked cod fish and banana spilt. Forgotten to take pics..
It was such a long time since I ate at jack place. It was our favorite hangout place with my aunt and uncle at the bras basah branch when I was young.
During the dinner, we chatted about current news etc. Then they asked him when is our wedding dinner. His mum casually mentioned that it's good to get married next year and have a dragon baby the following.
Hmm... Everything seem to be rushing. Nowadays topics are about flats, housing, children, marriage etc.. I do wish to settle down with him but talking about practically settling down, I seem afraid. Worried that we cannot cope financially, am I ready to be someone's wife; daughter in law; sister in law or even a mum?
The responsibility is a great commitment for life. Somehow I am withdrawing, afraid that I can't cope. Now this is really sitting on the fence... Hmmm...
Some overdued pics:
My surprise birthday celebration
My birthday presents
Citigem pendant from Angela, Anthony, Edwin and Gerald.
Gucci keychain from Shannon and Ben.
S90 camera from him.
Thanks to all!
Our trip to helix bridge
Monday, June 07, 2010
On a cool Monday morning, I am on way to work.. Squeezing thru the crowd in mrt.. This weekend was so short as we hardly had time. I am so tired, despite all the naps... I still feel lethargic.
Perhaps I am too tired emotionally, having to go thru the ups and downs again.. Going thru the emotional turmoils makes my heart break once again..
But glad that things work out fine... Will this last? I am not sure but I will keep trying...
I am losing confidence of myself...
Perhaps I am too tired emotionally, having to go thru the ups and downs again.. Going thru the emotional turmoils makes my heart break once again..
But glad that things work out fine... Will this last? I am not sure but I will keep trying...
I am losing confidence of myself...
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
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