i feel so tired.. really tired.. feel like cutting all contacts from everyone..i need a rest.. a break desperately.. i just feel depressed..

finally i am at home.. alone in my own room.. facing my whole mess of belongings on the floor... i need to clear up my room before i start my assignment cos this environment is affecting my mood of working...
I just came back from the airport; went to send my mum as she is going to Taiwan for a week. When i got home, a sudden feeling of loneliness came over me.. i felt so alone and i hated this feeling since young but i feel so relieved to be back at my own home.. a long time since i been at home.. although this house sucks but this is where my feelings and emotions flow out naturally... especially back at this familiar spot where i used to face the pc for hours and hours.. sitting right here... where i am now..
i miss it, i do miss this home although i hate things that happens around in this house... cos this is where i grew up, where i had joy and also where my tears had been soaked though my sleepless night... nowhere can be replace my home where i can cry my heart out without affecting others and having a deep sleep; waking up only to find this familiar wrecked house and family.. and this is my home, being myself and being me..

i may be poor but i have a strong backbone!

i may not have as well-to-do family as yours.. i may be poor but i am independent and strong even without my parents... i DUN NEED you to say those things about me! At least i have a clear conscience and not feeling bad as i am able to support myself...
ALONE, i am able to survive well and far better than you!

sOoo unpROductive!

it has been a long since my last blog as i have been busy working and nothing else. Alot of unhappy things have been happening at work which stress me up, i really hate it. all of it are weighing me down- where have my happiness working with children went to? haIz..
today i've been rotting at home, except for creating this new layout- thanks to my dear help! =) i desperately need a good rest as i have not been catching up on my sleep lately. i wish to go on a shopping spree and relax myself but i am broke (pay shcool fees).

hope everything goes well for me in work and studies!
i miss all of you my dear friends especially when those in NS! =)