I have been feeling lousy these few weeks, have not been my usual self and things happen unexpectedly over the weekends. alot of things went through my mind; thinking back on these few years and my personal growth.

I do not know why but i am getting tired of things around me. There are many things which i want to let go, in search of my own self. What do i want in life, what am i going to do and will my life continue to be like this? i do not know.

I even have the urge of handling in my resignation letter, i am not happy nor satisfied at all. My heart is feeling so heavy and down, i wish to leave this job in search of another one, not sure whether it will be in this field anot. There are so many things i wish to find out for the answers as my heart is telling me to go ahead and do what i want but my mind is being logical that i cannot do all these cause i will have to face a serious consequence in future.

Dear, i am sorry for everything, for hurting you, for causing the misery in you, for breaking your heart again. Jus wanna let you know that i have lost myself too at this point of time, hope that i would get myself back again and stand up to walk towards the future. I wun give up and is willing to give it a try again although we do not know the outcome. Loveya...