这段时间，或许我做了许多大家都不支持我的选择或决定，可是我还是坚持着。。

或许我真的累了，
累了为别人而活，
累了替别人着想
累了凡事都是为了你们或他们，

这次我选择自私，只为我自己。。。只想让自己活着还有意义；世上还有我的存在。。

我真的好累。。好累。。

回家的路上，我又流泪了。。因该是难过的眼泪吧。。收音机播着“比我幸福”。。就像我的心意。。。 突然好想他们，不知为何。。可能他们陪我快乐，陪我难过吧。。

回到家，看到他们的missed call。。回了电，听到他们熟悉的声音，我又想哭了。。 忍着眼泪。。不哭了。

online 收到了一份surprise... 哈哈。。又哭了。。 是感动的眼泪吧。。 谢谢你！！

好感谢陪伴着我的朋友， 在这些日子让我过得很充实很快乐。。

那颗心，选择不动，或许就不那么伤。。

Looking at my friend, being simple means being happy..
but being simple is not easy especially when one has been through lots in life..
I admire her so much as its easier for her to get over things at times.. whereas i still dwell on it over time n time...

had a chat with some friends, they teased me for being blur n 'toot' at times..
being like this, i often lose out cos others has think ahead of me..

being the stubborn me, believes that "being ignorance is bliss"...
Although this world may be cruel and people are always thinking of how to outdo one other,
i trust that there are still kindness in humane...

I am facing a stuggle within me, i do not know what and whom i can trust... i chose to run away but i also wanna find out the truth but afraid of being hurt again... i am just so afraid..

i guessed my heart has been locked up again... the truth is just too much for me to face...

my life has been pretty occupied with these loved ones~

thanks for being there~ and with more to come! =D

如果再见我　你能说什么
说爱我　或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠　选择不联络
因为我　担心你会听见我　
还那么难过
短讯声在响　凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里　更孤单
一句睡了吗　像你的习惯
这夜晚　为你而混乱
因为对
你我连再见都　说不出口
我想你能懂

i lost my sense of judgement.. i cant tell what is right or wrong anymore.. which is the truth or lie.. which is real or unreal... 在我眼前，一切都是模糊了。。

我的心好痛好痛，比分开还痛。。 这就是我看到和得到的结果吗。。想了很多。。 我已经好累好累了。。 不管结果是如何。。

born on 23 may 1984:

* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* Strong-willed and highly motivated
* Sharp thoughts
* Easily angered
* Attracts others and loves attention
* Deep feelings
* Beautiful physically and mentally
* Firm standpoint
* Easily influenced
* Needs no motivation
* Easily consoled
* Systematic (left brain)
* Loves to dream
* Strong clairvoyance
* Understanding
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck
* Good imagination
* Good debating skills
* Good physical
* Weak breathing
* Loves literature and the arts
* ! Loves traveling
* High spirited
* Spendthrift

how true?....

tearing in my heart as tears wells up in my eyes...

my life is in a mess which i totally have no control of... i hate it as much as i hate myself!!

在我回家的路上，我们的回忆又出现在我脑海里。

经过那些商店，他们都忙着拆新年的雕饰。新年就这样过了，我的生活也不一样了，一切都过去了就如新年。。。

在戏院里，我的身旁已不是你。。
在车上，我的右手边也不是你了。。

希望我能够更坚强去面对将来的一切。。

我学会了一样东西：I was a chapter of your life and now you are on another chapter of life...