Lying on bed now.. at 2.37am..i am still awake...

'Life is so unpredictable' which sounds so "classic".... hehe....but true enough, this is an apt description of my life now...

I am looking forward to this new lease of life which i got to face it and overcome it. Facing new challenges in life has always been what i am looking for because i am afraid of boredom... sick of daily routines. I know that this might be the greatest challenges in life because we are working with our loved ones, yet i believe that we will be able to overcome all difficulties because of our love for friendship which holds us dearly together.

I got to learn to let go of the past and accept this new chapter. Although i have my reservations, i am willing to go through everything once again because if i never try, i will never know the outcome.

I am nothing but just a girl who is willing to try everything to find true meaning in life. I believe in true love because i still see old couples holding hand in hand, never giving up on one another. Hopefully he is here....

I am holding onto everything that i have now.. my love and passion in life in return for happiness... just a simple happiness...

i am feeling blissful now... hehe.. never felt so for a long long time... i am just so happy...

looking forward to the future and a fresh me, putting the past behind.. leaving all sad and painful memories at this moment...

thanks to my friends for being there for me; accompanying me through the late nights with buckets of tears... at KTVs, playgrounds, etc... thanks for trying so hard to cheer me up with all your stunts which you may try harder next time... haha!

sorry to those whom i cant borrow your shoulder to lie on due to your Significant Other... Sorry la... =P must respect right? hehe

Thanks for everything~for being there for me~ for not laughing at me when i cried so terribly like a baby.. I know i cried like a baby... I shall mention it myself!! =P

I feel like a princess now.. lalala... hehe....

You tend to be cheerful, carefree, pure and gentle sort of person.
You possess a relaxed atmosphere, and although you seem a proud person, you are actually friendly and open-hearted.
You are not cautious towards people you meet for the first time, and be able to act openly to men as well.
You possess extremely honest character, and never doubt others.
You are too ready to believe others, and are not terribly good at bargaining and tactics.
Your heart is too pure for that sort of things.
Your instinct and observing power is weak.But you are intelligent enough to see things objectively.
Theory is very important for you, and therefore you are not good at fast action.
You are broad-minded person, and are well trusted by people.
You get too busy looking after the others, and may loose yourself.
You go about thing in your own pace, and you possess strong volunteering spirit.
But if something is unreasonable, you are very obstinate not to acknowledge it.
You are a person with strong sense of justice.
You can be optimistic towards life, and believe everything will settle just fine.
You like men who are well-dressed and smart, modern and educated.
After getting married you will be a caring wife, and tend to be busy going about doing lots of things.

I enjoyed this trip to Bintan..despite all the blurness and hiccups... We did lots of activities like snorkeling, jet ski, banana boat, buggy rides etc.. We were under the scorching sun for 7 hours and now suffering from sunburnt.. I have never been so tanned in my life... haha!

Here are only a few pics as we were busy enjoying ourselves and only took all the pics on our last day...

looking forward for the next trip~ maybe batam then! hehe!

thanks to those for their birthday wishes to me!

Yeah.. i am back! i enjoyed myself very much there... hope to stay there as there is no memories... no past memories.. no sad memories... just a fresh new start... how i wish..

now back here.. gt to face all the shit again... dread them.. haiz!

anyway another day for me to rest before i am back to the cruelty of life! hahaa!

我在这两年里过得好累。。累得喘不过气。。好忙忙得吃不下饭。。 终于决定放弃的时候，她让我觉得这里没这么不好。。还是有人情味，这里都有感觉和谈不上的亲情。。

今天我却哭了，发现原来我就只是一个平平凡凡，说来就来， 说走就走的一个人罢了。。。 我的心好伤好伤。。 总相信世界上会有有心人，可是我就只是一个人罢了。。。

在这地方，每一寸地方，每一扇门， 都有我的苦心。。。可是又有谁看到了。。我好难过。。

好难过。。。

i have been feeling down recently due to lots of happenings in my life....

today, i am happy for one of my best friend- Christina Cai. She went to register for her marriage and i am happy that she has found her love one...

To her Hubby: Do treat her good and take care of her or we wun let you off. And pls give her permission to go out with us at times ya.. =P hahaa!

I have been upset at work... feeling the stressed.. especially during this HFMD period. I seek teachers and staffs cooperation to do whatever we can to keep the diease at bay. But I faced uncooperative and irresponsible parents who only care for themselves. I was upset as i feel that it is unfair for my teachers and staffs who have done all their best to prevent the spread of disease. If parents can do their part, we could have done a better job. I voiced my unhappiness to my friends, colleagues and family. Everyone just says, what can you do? you have done your best.. So dun think too much since yours is not the only centre down with it.

Brooding over the issue makes me realise that it does not help, so i wrote in to the papers to voice my concerns out and also doing my social responsiblity as an Early Childhood Educator. I am glad that they actually publish my passage out, reaching out the community and hope parents will realise that they can do their part too...

Hopefully, parents will think about what they can do as a responsible being..

这段时间，或许我做了许多大家都不支持我的选择或决定，可是我还是坚持着。。

或许我真的累了，
累了为别人而活，
累了替别人着想
累了凡事都是为了你们或他们，

这次我选择自私，只为我自己。。。只想让自己活着还有意义；世上还有我的存在。。

我真的好累。。好累。。

回家的路上，我又流泪了。。因该是难过的眼泪吧。。收音机播着“比我幸福”。。就像我的心意。。。 突然好想他们，不知为何。。可能他们陪我快乐，陪我难过吧。。

回到家，看到他们的missed call。。回了电，听到他们熟悉的声音，我又想哭了。。 忍着眼泪。。不哭了。

online 收到了一份surprise... 哈哈。。又哭了。。 是感动的眼泪吧。。 谢谢你！！

好感谢陪伴着我的朋友， 在这些日子让我过得很充实很快乐。。

那颗心，选择不动，或许就不那么伤。。