On a cool Monday morning, I am on way to work.. Squeezing thru the crowd in mrt.. This weekend was so short as we hardly had time. I am so tired, despite all the naps... I still feel lethargic.

Perhaps I am too tired emotionally, having to go thru the ups and downs again.. Going thru the emotional turmoils makes my heart break once again..

But glad that things work out fine... Will this last? I am not sure but I will keep trying...

I am losing confidence of myself...

Thanks for everyone concern!! I am fine just stressed up with work and family issue... Mum in hospital, rushing here and there...

Yeah my tea session with parents has been postponed!! Phew~

Yest saw the canon powershot sx210 online... Wanting it!!!! Hehhe!!! Friends u know what to do huh... Hahhah

I been trying to understand people.. Adults keep telling me:" you have to learn to understand because...＂ ＂you have to to try to look for their perspective as ....."

I am tired of hearing all these... I know what you are trying to say but have you stop to think... Have you ever learn to understand me or ever learn to look from my perspective??

To certain extend, we are all selfish beings and seek attention.... Just because I am fine and is mature enough to think and handle things doesn't mean I am Alright, okay?

I am just another young adult (or adult whichever you like to name) who wants attention too... I wished to be cared for and be understood.. I wish to be spoilt and pampered so that I can gain some attention... But yet it was never to be...

I can never have that kinda attention because to u pp, I am mature enough and able to cope...

Don't wait till one day I chose to mishandle things because I decided to just to gain your attention... Then it would be very pitiful for you and upsetting for everyone...

On way home and later to the hospital for mum's admission... Feeling tired physically and emotionally... To add on, my Aunty visit came... Emo emo emo..

This will be a busy week again with mum in hospital and work.. Work is piling up and lots of issues to handle at the same time.. Stressed ah~

Not a good and happy may to start off with.. Haiz... And not to mention it's my birthday month too!! Hope everyhing would be better... *Pray*

After 3 days of sore throat, running nose and persistant fever... i gave in and went to see doctor... despite taking medications from previous visits...

Doc recommended me to take Tamiflu which i refused as i had taken it before and the feeling was bad... and did not want to be immune to Tamiflu too... end up took the H1N1 swab test which was highly encouraged by her and since it was free, i went ahead... had to wait 3 days for test results...

*waiting patiently*

meanwhile just plenty of rest and if fever persist or high fever.. will have to be back to clinic...

got to rest...

Travelling on the similar journey but different feeling... Looking at the same scenary but different views....

The smile on her face is so sincere... Which makes each day worth looking forward to...

Simple happiness...

After some discussions, I felt that things were so wrong just to turn the tables at me...

Nothing was mentioned before I signed on the dotted lines... She did promise to return me not in one sum yet we agreed verbally on the monthly term instead... As your reason was based on com acct.

Yet at the very moment u telling me not to be calculative... I was soooo wrong not to listen to them. They told me to wait till I received everything before signing... Yet I told them it's alright, I trust them and they would stand by their words...

Now I have proved myself sooo wrong... Words have been eaten up... Tables turned around...

No point arguing who's right or wrong anymore cos to some they are never ending to it..

It's a lesson learnt... Only trust black and white... Sad to say, I have lost it... Lost it once again... Got to move on...

No one is indispensable in this world… thus it makes no difference to some people whether we are breathing in the same air or not..

My good friend taught me: “Once a friend, always a friend” which I held on dearly to.. Even till now, we would make an effort to catch up on our lives..

But the quote doesn’t apply to all… Things have turned sour to the point of disappointment and sense of betrayal…. If you are out to turn my life upside down by doing such things to eat my share, go ahead if it does not affect your conscience… knowing my plight and current situation… all I need is understanding and not some kinda arrangement to do me in.

It’s so F**king upsetting that I cannot stand it… if you were really my buddy you would have informed me earlier knowing my current situation and not play me out by doing such things…

At least I know I been thru it, slog it through even though I did not succeed but I manage to recover my health…

Sorry to all reading this post, I am just too upset with certain issue at this point of time…. Don’t ask me anymore if you are really concerned… thanks…

back from a 'construction' on my teeth.. spent $200+ on it.. a big damage to my poor pocket.. but glad i have nice set of looking teeth!

Mega Smile!

can't believe i am the fool again.. i gave you chances and chances again.. yet i thought you could be trusted but i realised that you been lying to me again and again.. regardless call it a white lie or what...

i just hate ppl for lying to me!!
i really don't know how to trust and pretend that everthing is gonna be alright....

haiz.. a long journey down yet no trust.. only pretence...