stressed??

I just reached home after meeting my dear & friends to discuss abt the chalet.. as usual ended up discussing nt... duno wad they intend to do..
anyway i just read this email about stress, how true is it? am i carrying it for too long.. maybe.. maybe not.. up to you to analyse and think about it>>>

A lecturer, when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass of water and asked, "How heavy is this glass of water?" Answers called out ranged from 20 grams to 500 grams. The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden. So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can. Relax, pick them up later after you've rested. Life is short. Enjoy it!

...down again...

my immune system is once down again.. i am down with flu and body aches... feeling so lethergic & sick.. haiz..

too many unhappy things are happening around me... i hope everyone will be strong and hold on that happiness especially my buddy: love u buddy, we will always be here for u and be strong k?

i will be free in mid may.. i have finally tender.. a mixed feelings of happiness, sadness and confusion in my heart.. i know it will be a tough one month for us.. pray that i will have the strength to walk thru this and get on in life.. cheers!

..me..

An insensitive, insensible, selfish & self-centered gal who needs lots of assurance.. i lack sense of security which makes me wad i am today.. everything happening me is making me lost trust & faith in people around me especially my family.. i am just a gal who wants to be happy and think of myself only... and this is me..

so sweet of him~

i had a big fight with my bro yesterday night~ i am so pissed off and upset over this issue.. do i really have no place in this family and house anymore? i cant wait to move out and i had a long talk with my buddy over the phone. I understand that she cares alot for me.. but one thing for sure, i am tired of having to think for my family.. time to think for myself, my life and future.. u can say i am selfish or wadever.. but i wanna be myeslf!

anyway i am in my dear's house now.. he has went out to buy spagheti sauce cos the one in the house have spoilt. hehe.. so sweet of him to cook for me~ we are stuck in his house cos it was raining heavily and couldn't have our lunch outside. thanks & loveya dear~ muackz!

..my tears..

my heart aches when i saw you.. the smile on ur face was gone.. the crazy n fun loving u was not around.. i wish my hugs & kisses could soothe the pain in ur heart, free the troubles from ur mind & soul.. i wish i could do something for u.. but i cant.. i can only see u standing there strong and still loving me n wanna protect me with whatever u have...

my tears rolled when i turned around.. my heart aching.. aching n feeling pain for the one i love... loveya dear..

my poor thumb

i had a back pain yesterday night and wanted to use the hot water bag as instructed by the therapist. i was pouring the boiling water into the bag when thoughts came to my mind and i was not concentrating as i poured the water into my thumb. i saw the skin came off and rushed to the tap immediately. it was so painful and i was so afraid. i held on to my thumb and cried. i cried in front of my mum & bro, i couldn't control my tears at all this time round. then i realised tat i was not crying because of the pain but cos of the sadness within me. i just broke down uncontrollably... i msged my dear n buddy..

my dear came over immediately and rushed me to the doc although he was studying for his test~ sorry and loveya dear! thanks for being there for me~

i was not able to relieve the pain in my back but caused a pain at another area... wad the hell was i doing... i was nv like this no matter how things are, i have always been able to get hold of myself in any situation...

i got a shock just now as i received a msg from my pri sch friend that one of my classmate is geting married this may. oHhh... i couldn't imagine myself getting settled down at this age.. sO yoUng~

i miss my dear alot right now... he's tired from all the rushing the whole night.. poor him.. miss him terribly.. loveya~

tiring day

i rushed off work for my physio session.. met lin at the bus stop and decided to go for my lunch first. thinking that i wun be able to make it for the session at 3, i called up to postpone to 4pm instead.
i had a chat wif her, think i have somehow decided to call it quits.. i am tired of everything.. tired of having to face them.. tired of having to tolerate the pain..

today was quite a rushed physio sesion cos i was late.. reached there only to realise tat i dun hab cash wif me.. they dun accept nets at all.. i gt to search around the place for an ATM.. i am a total direction idiot.. moreover i was in a unfamiliar place.. haha.. trying to figure my way around..

today had a heart-to-heart talk wif the therapist... i shared abt my family, myself and work.. usually i dun share so much abt myself with unfamiliar ppl.. after the talking, he said he would use a flower to describe me: lotus. he said it was becos the lotus grew in a muddy and dirty environment but the flower grows so pure and pretty without any effects from its bad environment... he drew such a nice "picture" of whom he knew me..

at the end of the session, he told me truthfully that he wun be able to help me in long term cos he is there for me physically to provide these physio session but he said its all because of everything i am going through and having to shoulder all these which caused me to have the tensed up muscles. cos everyday i am facing stress & lots of emotional burden which cause my muscles lacking the opportunity to relax thus accumulating the pain .. its all emotional stress.. haiz..

thanks friends..

thanks to all my concerned friends... i am alright now.. i can only pass each day as they come.... i have chosen to keep all these troubles in a box and keep it far away in a corner of my heart and mind.. it is very tiring to keep pondering over all these issues and having being stressed up all over again and again.. now i just wish to live in happiness and laughter.. i cannot afford to break down and let those who loves and cares for me to be worried.. thanks peeps! =)

i have been busy nowadays and just submitted one of my assignment on last fri.. i rushed thru the whole morning and handed it in at the very last minute.. i hope i can get good grades for it though i got some naggings and scoldings from my dear dear for doing last minute work =P

the heaviest thing on my mind now is my health, i wish i can get well soon with the weekly physiotherapy session and hope that things would get better *pray hard*
i have been putting on weight as i been eating alot at night.. i know that it is unhealthy to indulge myself in food when i am already full but i think i am just stressed.. wanna eat to feel better but look at my body size.. arGh!! help!! time to lose weight again!!

i have promised dear dear no more ice-cream, chocolate & fried food for me... hope i can control myself.. haha.. =P *crossed my fingers*

i have 3 more assignments to go.. must be more hardworking liao... no more last min work for me!! i am suffering from the sleepless nights...feeling lethargic... hehe..

take care peeps.. i will smile and laughs more cos laughter is the best medicine! hahhaa! missya all!