thks for all your concerns.. i am fine..
retreating into my corner of thoughts...
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
here i am with a heavy heart yet souless being..
i feel so empty within me that i am lost.. my life used to be full of ups and downs but now it seems too smooth or rather boring that i cant get used it.
my heart and mind is complicated and i dunno how to fix it back in place. i am not sure about my directions in life and just leading the life as it is. is this how i am going to spend my life for the next 4 to 5 yrs? i am sure it isnt but what can i do? i do not wish to waste my twenties doing nothing worthwhile.
They say that its better to die without regrets rather then die without trying. how many of us really have the courage to do what we really want? i wish to try and rather to die without regrets but in the first place, i dunno how to step out of my comfort zone.
i have been working for the past 3 yrs in different company. but thinking back, how much have i achieve or learnt? we need $$ to live but that is not all about life. there are much more things like satisfaction, happiness and health etc. just out of these 3, i feel that i have achieve nothing, just a waste of my life...
my moral, energy level and drive is running low. I need to recharge myself. Is this how i am going to be....
i feel so empty within me that i am lost.. my life used to be full of ups and downs but now it seems too smooth or rather boring that i cant get used it.
my heart and mind is complicated and i dunno how to fix it back in place. i am not sure about my directions in life and just leading the life as it is. is this how i am going to spend my life for the next 4 to 5 yrs? i am sure it isnt but what can i do? i do not wish to waste my twenties doing nothing worthwhile.
They say that its better to die without regrets rather then die without trying. how many of us really have the courage to do what we really want? i wish to try and rather to die without regrets but in the first place, i dunno how to step out of my comfort zone.
i have been working for the past 3 yrs in different company. but thinking back, how much have i achieve or learnt? we need $$ to live but that is not all about life. there are much more things like satisfaction, happiness and health etc. just out of these 3, i feel that i have achieve nothing, just a waste of my life...
my moral, energy level and drive is running low. I need to recharge myself. Is this how i am going to be....
Saturday, July 28, 2007
After working for the whole week till around 9pm, now i am left with a weak body and mind; down with flu which is making me so frustrated. All these work are draining my health and soul which left me with nothing but an empty body. Hope to rest well and recharge once again.
Some updates of my life:
2 of my hamsters passed away which left me upset. I understand that human live and die what's more about a small animal whose lifespan is only 2 years+. Well, living things are just so fragile. Either we get old and passed away or met with a fatal accident or worst still- illness... Sometimes i wonder, what if one day i just leave this world suddenly, what would it be like? Just the same old saying, treasure your life and live like there's no tomorrow: who can really do it? *thinking*
I just read thru one of my friend's blog. I felt very guilty. Felt really bad, cause i wasn't there when she needed support. Now all i can do, is to hide within myself and wish her all the best!
Somehow, i felt that I have been drifting away from my friends and family as I am always occupied with work (or is it just an excuse?.. I don't know) I find that i do not have time for myself on weekdays. On weekends, i go out for movie with dear and sleep through the night till Sun, only to find myself lethargic (stayed home) and drag myself to work on Monday again.
I don't know how long this can drags on as i am draining out physically and emotionally... guess i have to persevere till we fulfil our dreams..
Some positive note...congratulations to my 2 buddies on embarking on their new career which is also the beginning of our dreams! I believe that they can do it and they will succeed! For the sake of our dreams, buddies! Me and sihui will be working hard on $$(haha!) and support u all the way! CHeers!
I guessed that's all for today. Might be going to the doctor tomorrow if still not well after a night's rest... Lemming for N76! anyone wanna sponsor me? *dreams on**
Some updates of my life:
2 of my hamsters passed away which left me upset. I understand that human live and die what's more about a small animal whose lifespan is only 2 years+. Well, living things are just so fragile. Either we get old and passed away or met with a fatal accident or worst still- illness... Sometimes i wonder, what if one day i just leave this world suddenly, what would it be like? Just the same old saying, treasure your life and live like there's no tomorrow: who can really do it? *thinking*
I just read thru one of my friend's blog. I felt very guilty. Felt really bad, cause i wasn't there when she needed support. Now all i can do, is to hide within myself and wish her all the best!
Somehow, i felt that I have been drifting away from my friends and family as I am always occupied with work (or is it just an excuse?.. I don't know) I find that i do not have time for myself on weekdays. On weekends, i go out for movie with dear and sleep through the night till Sun, only to find myself lethargic (stayed home) and drag myself to work on Monday again.
I don't know how long this can drags on as i am draining out physically and emotionally... guess i have to persevere till we fulfil our dreams..
Some positive note...congratulations to my 2 buddies on embarking on their new career which is also the beginning of our dreams! I believe that they can do it and they will succeed! For the sake of our dreams, buddies! Me and sihui will be working hard on $$(haha!) and support u all the way! CHeers!
I guessed that's all for today. Might be going to the doctor tomorrow if still not well after a night's rest... Lemming for N76! anyone wanna sponsor me? *dreams on**
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
here i am, down with blocked nose... going to work later as i got to stay late tonight. Just did some personality tests:
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
haha... some are quite true though as i will remind myself of who i am as we tend to take on other roles as we are too immersed in work life...
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
haha... some are quite true though as i will remind myself of who i am as we tend to take on other roles as we are too immersed in work life...
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Been busy with the 3 centres' family day and jurong had their family day yesterday and mine would be this coming sat.. STRESSED.....
anyway i came across this email which was funny yet true to all the working personnel
anyway i came across this email which was funny yet true to all the working personnel
WHEN U COME TO WORK..........
Monday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Last one is ultimate....
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Saturday & Sunday !!!
haha!!!
Monday, June 04, 2007
I must have been busy or rather plain lazy to update my blog.. hahah! anyway some updates of my life...
i was away in genting for my birthday (again??..haha..) which should be HK or Bangkok but had to make changes due to the RTRC seminar on Sat! wad to do.. make do with genting then.. hehe!
Back in S'pore, facing reality: my horrible-cum-terrible parents and of cos not to forget the terrifying kids! hehe.. not all but some of them are my lil' darlings... miss 'em though!
well, my job has an never-ending story as now we are busy preparing for the upcoming carnival on 23 June yet i've not done anything yet! OOpps! But i had frequent meetings and updates with my teachers on their progress.. after this, we would be busy with PTC, celebrations and not to forget our most stressful graduation concert! hahaa!
back to now... i am having my 'auntie visit'; one which upsets me every month with cramps till my menopause.. oh.. how long will that be? 20+ or 30+ yrs?? OH.. Dread this thought of mine!!
anyway.. i am off to bed! right now i am missing some of my frenz especially seowli.. dear gal.. take care ya! i am just a phone call away.. muackz!
i was away in genting for my birthday (again??..haha..) which should be HK or Bangkok but had to make changes due to the RTRC seminar on Sat! wad to do.. make do with genting then.. hehe!
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Back in S'pore, facing reality: my horrible-cum-terrible parents and of cos not to forget the terrifying kids! hehe.. not all but some of them are my lil' darlings... miss 'em though!
well, my job has an never-ending story as now we are busy preparing for the upcoming carnival on 23 June yet i've not done anything yet! OOpps! But i had frequent meetings and updates with my teachers on their progress.. after this, we would be busy with PTC, celebrations and not to forget our most stressful graduation concert! hahaa!
back to now... i am having my 'auntie visit'; one which upsets me every month with cramps till my menopause.. oh.. how long will that be? 20+ or 30+ yrs?? OH.. Dread this thought of mine!!
anyway.. i am off to bed! right now i am missing some of my frenz especially seowli.. dear gal.. take care ya! i am just a phone call away.. muackz!
Friday, April 27, 2007
At times, i feel down and depressed. Life's so meaningless as i just worked hard everyday only to find myself dead tired on bed. I happened to chance upon this inspiring quote which adds meaning to my life as an early childhood educator:
I am a counselor and psychologist to a problem-filled child,I am a police officer that controls a child gone wild.
I am a travel agent scheduling our trips for the year;I am a confidante that wipes a crying child's tear.
I am a banker collecting money for a ton of different things;I am a librarian showing adventures that a storybook brings.
I am a custodian that has to clean certain little messes;I am a psychic that learns to know all that everybody only guesses.
I am a photographer keeping pictures of a child's yearly growth,When mother and father are gone for the day, I become both.
I am a doctor that detects when a child is feeling sick,I am a politician that must know the laws and recognize a trick.
I am a party planner for holidays to celebrate with all;I am a decorator of a room, filling every wall.
I am a news reporter updating on our nation's current events,I am a detective solving small mysteries and ending all suspense.
I am a clown and comedian that make the children laugh,I am a dietician assuring they have lunch or from mine I give them half.
When we seem to stray from values, I become a preacher,But I'm proud to have to be these people because ...
I'm proud to say, "I am a teacher."
I Am a Teacher
I am a counselor and psychologist to a problem-filled child,I am a police officer that controls a child gone wild.
I am a travel agent scheduling our trips for the year;I am a confidante that wipes a crying child's tear.
I am a banker collecting money for a ton of different things;I am a librarian showing adventures that a storybook brings.
I am a custodian that has to clean certain little messes;I am a psychic that learns to know all that everybody only guesses.
I am a photographer keeping pictures of a child's yearly growth,When mother and father are gone for the day, I become both.
I am a doctor that detects when a child is feeling sick,I am a politician that must know the laws and recognize a trick.
I am a party planner for holidays to celebrate with all;I am a decorator of a room, filling every wall.
I am a news reporter updating on our nation's current events,I am a detective solving small mysteries and ending all suspense.
I am a clown and comedian that make the children laugh,I am a dietician assuring they have lunch or from mine I give them half.
When we seem to stray from values, I become a preacher,But I'm proud to have to be these people because ...
I'm proud to say, "I am a teacher."
Some people feels that being a teacher is an easy task: All you need is to teach ABC, 123, change diapers etc. But i am sorry to say that this concept is outdated. We are building the foundation of tomorrow as you will never know who will be the next minister or great person. So don't belittle us, teacher or early childhood educators cause you never know whom you are dealing with! That's all! Cya!!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
anyone misses me??? I have been too lazy and tired to update. My school is having an OpenHouse for these 2 coming saturdays and i'll be having 1st aid training on these two coming sundays which means i'll be at centre for straight 14 days!! anyone has room to rent at east area?
latest updates!!
We have been spending much on meals! We went to The Mussels Guys at Vivo. The mussels were delicious but the main course were so-so only. I spent $80++ just for the 2 of us. Honestly, only the mussels in sambal sauce can make it..We have been going to restaurants which were a lil too extravagant! our wallets are badly damaged and for now we have to eat $2 mee pok for the rest of the month till our next pay comes!
We bought rollerblades together with his sis, Joey! ahha.. i had fallen umpteen times than only i could stand on my own. Now i am able to glide smoothly and learning to brake "SAFELY".
I took leave today as i need a break badly as i been having terrible headaches these few days. My head are spinning and my body are worn out. Need more zest to move on! Cheers on!!!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
This time round, I realised that i have been too selfish. I only think of myself and neglected the people around me. I wish i could make certain decisions.
I thought that i was happy but i was wrong. I had chose the escape route out which was easier. Yet I caused the people around me even more miserable. Haiz..
I have long forgiven him but his actions proved otherwise. I know that he is no longer the same as he have aged. His backview made me teared. I am caught in between as both are so dear to me. I wish someone could enlighten me and save us from this. I sent him a msg, hoping that he would wake up. Dun wait till he regrets it..
None has ever forsake him despite the things he have done, although we are angry but we nv gave up. I hope that he would wake up after this incident.
I have failed my responsiblity and duty as one. I am able to educate and support others but failed for him. I am such a failure. I am sure she feels the same way as me.
I pray that things would be better and hope he will think it through.
I thought that i was happy but i was wrong. I had chose the escape route out which was easier. Yet I caused the people around me even more miserable. Haiz..
I have long forgiven him but his actions proved otherwise. I know that he is no longer the same as he have aged. His backview made me teared. I am caught in between as both are so dear to me. I wish someone could enlighten me and save us from this. I sent him a msg, hoping that he would wake up. Dun wait till he regrets it..
None has ever forsake him despite the things he have done, although we are angry but we nv gave up. I hope that he would wake up after this incident.
I have failed my responsiblity and duty as one. I am able to educate and support others but failed for him. I am such a failure. I am sure she feels the same way as me.
I pray that things would be better and hope he will think it through.
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