After some discussions, I felt that things were so wrong just to turn the tables at me...

Nothing was mentioned before I signed on the dotted lines... She did promise to return me not in one sum yet we agreed verbally on the monthly term instead... As your reason was based on com acct.

Yet at the very moment u telling me not to be calculative... I was soooo wrong not to listen to them. They told me to wait till I received everything before signing... Yet I told them it's alright, I trust them and they would stand by their words...

Now I have proved myself sooo wrong... Words have been eaten up... Tables turned around...

No point arguing who's right or wrong anymore cos to some they are never ending to it..

It's a lesson learnt... Only trust black and white... Sad to say, I have lost it... Lost it once again... Got to move on...

No one is indispensable in this world… thus it makes no difference to some people whether we are breathing in the same air or not..

My good friend taught me: “Once a friend, always a friend” which I held on dearly to.. Even till now, we would make an effort to catch up on our lives..

But the quote doesn’t apply to all… Things have turned sour to the point of disappointment and sense of betrayal…. If you are out to turn my life upside down by doing such things to eat my share, go ahead if it does not affect your conscience… knowing my plight and current situation… all I need is understanding and not some kinda arrangement to do me in.

It’s so F**king upsetting that I cannot stand it… if you were really my buddy you would have informed me earlier knowing my current situation and not play me out by doing such things…

At least I know I been thru it, slog it through even though I did not succeed but I manage to recover my health…

Sorry to all reading this post, I am just too upset with certain issue at this point of time…. Don’t ask me anymore if you are really concerned… thanks…

back from a 'construction' on my teeth.. spent $200+ on it.. a big damage to my poor pocket.. but glad i have nice set of looking teeth!

Mega Smile!

can't believe i am the fool again.. i gave you chances and chances again.. yet i thought you could be trusted but i realised that you been lying to me again and again.. regardless call it a white lie or what...

i just hate ppl for lying to me!!
i really don't know how to trust and pretend that everthing is gonna be alright....

haiz.. a long journey down yet no trust.. only pretence...

That kinda fear makes one feel helpless.. there is nothing i can do at all.. only to pray.. although i am fearful yet i got to pretend everything is going to be fine..

I understand that kinda fear of duno what is going to happen.. what will happen or what is next?

Feeling totally lost and helpless..

Lying here.. Thinking.. Pondering.. I have come this far.. With nothing on hands but only love love & love.. Love from my family, love from my friends & love from him..

I broke their heart again n again, they shed their tears for me again n again but they continue to love and support me again n again.. I love them for who they are.. I really love u..

Alot of things have changed. It will never be the same again.
Life has to move on and I am learning to let go of the heavy burden. I am grateful to have my friends, family and him to stand by me.
It was heartening to hear from her especially when she is miles away. Really thanks alot. At times it is difficult to share with ppl around us as there is always an emotional attachment to it thus may affect judgement. Worry about how ppl are going to look at us, observe our behaviour and what is running through their mind.
To think back, We had a silly pact in our younger days. I guessed it's all these memories and promises which keeps us going. As quoted by a friend:" once a friend, forever A friend."

Another year is reaching the end yet I feel I have not accomplished much. I am being thrown back to square one, the same place where I was then.

Moving on, don't know what is ahead. Where is the courage and strength. What am I doing it for and why?? It feels kinda trap in a circle without any angle to see from. Just going round and round only to be chasing my own shadow, myself.

it has been a long time since my last post. My life has been pretty mundane with work, burning midnight oil, work, bf and friends. Somehow i am grateful to have caught up with friends who has been supportive and willing to give me listening ear to my heartfelt words and feelings. They can understand my feelings and thoughts yet they can help me view from another perspective. I could really pour my heart out to them~ without any withold or awkwardness.

I guessed along the way~ I have lost and gain some friendship. At least to me, i feel comfortable talking to them about anything under the sun.

I am not sure if the decision is settled which is making me upset as I do not know whether to let go and move on. I hate the sense of feeling lost, that kinda sense of uncertainty about things.

Thanks to ppl who have been walking along with me; giving me the support and concern. Thanks to friends who spent the nights with me although they are also caught up with their own stuffs.

But i felt sorry for some who really cared but I could not be there, physically or emotionally.

I guessed I am down with alot of emo stuffs that are unsettled thus i chose to close myself up. I need strength to walk on....

你认为对我好的东西或事情，并不是我想要的。。

我想要的只是那么简单。。。

Don't need to put me down!!! at least i do not do things against my conscience or to hurt anyone...