loves u alot~

i duno if i had made the right choice to give each other a chance to start all over again.. but i am sure that i do loves u so dearly, my dear alvin~ i hate to cry and hate that pain in my heart.. though i was prepared to walk alone once again.. i know it would be real hard to pick up all the broken pieces of my heart and mend it again~ its just so hard~
i hope it would be another new beginning for us as we loves each other and believed that we would be able to overcome all obstacles with all the strong will i have within me and with the support of my dear friends around.. i am prepared to walk with u down the road with the blessings from our friends once again..
*to all my friends especially hy, yy & xl.. thanks for all ur concern.. u have been great pals which i treasure our friendships alot~ i have nothing much to say but thank you from the bottom of my heart.. "Thank You." i hope this msg here would soothe all your worries and concerns for me.. i am really fine.. thanks alot~ =)

sad~sob~

here i am.. its early in the morning and i am already awake.. but guessed i did not really slept the whole nite.. whenever i close my eyes, all the memories flowed in my mind~ now i hate to fall asleep alone... it was just so scary n lonely.. i hate tat feeling...
as i looked through the photos we had.. i think we had went thru alot despite of the fact tat we had lots of differences in family background and etc.. i cast aside the reality world i was in and decided to go into this "dreamland" with you.. u have brought me lots of happiness with your family... ur mum have doted on me alot and i duno how to repay her kindness..
i am only sad to say that i am really sorry.. i guessed.. reality n dreams can never be the same.. now i got to wake up and face my own reality world all over again as i walked alone thru this..

so sorry & thanks for everything

this might be the last time i shall blog since this is the day where my memories ends here.... everything will be a kept memory somewhere in me, myself. I shall not let everyone have a peep into it.
thanks for everything you have done all these months... i guess only u n me had the memories in both hk and singapore.. thanks for bringing me there to view and had fun~ those were one of the happiest days of my life especially when we were there to celebrate your brithday.. so sorry tat i could not get anything else for u..
u have been a gd bf but i guessed we had too many differences tat we could not compromise.. so sorry.. i had too much to say which i could not pen it here.. just wanna thank you..

pOOr fiSh =(

as my title suggested, my day was filled with fishes~ i went with my dear's mum n sis to jp for dinner and get their home necessities...after tat, i went with my dear to the chilid farm in lim chu kang to exchange one of his fish bought yesterday.. i think the fish was dying but we still brought it back to the farm in case its still surviving.. but sad to say, the uncle just took a look at it and then fed it to his dog.. i was so shocked and only one thing came to my mind in that instant~ cruelty and disgusted! but the dog spat it out instead and the fish was lying on the floor when the uncle brought out to another pond for a new fish.. i felt abit sad for the fish.. it was overall a living thing too but why the uncle treated it this way~ haiZ..
then my dear bought another 3 fishes... i just felt that he got too much of it already.. and i dun like this species- they r so fierce~ buLLies!
we headed opposite my house there and i bought 4 more neon tetra to add to my collection.. heehe.. i love these neon tetra.. they looks so nice~ my dear bought the blood worms and some aquatic plants for his tank.. i love my fish tank though its small.. i hope to be able to maintain the plants well so tat it looks nicer but i am broke.. next time shall buy the plant fertiliser when i am richer... =P
tml my group will be going to to the FSC to discuss about the implementation of my fyp.. hope it goes well~ will be sending my dear's 2nd sis to aus too.. hope she does well over there~ =)
will be catching some sleep soon.. tml will have to get up early.. yaWn~ niTe!

tired day~feeling lethergic

it has been quite some time since i blog as i have been too busy with my projects.. i am so drained out with all of them as they seems to be never-ending... i finally get to rest on sunday.. i was out for a birthday celebration for 2 of my sec sch friends(wenhong & vincent).. had a nice dinner at kuali restaurant at suntec~ it was not bad though i had spent quite a bomb on tat day and on the presents.. anyway we had a nice chat at the esplanade b4 we headed home..
today was quite a moody day for me as i was in pain~ not feeling well... and had to meet my friends in sch for my fyp.. siaNZ~ needed to meet my adviser to discuss about it.. after which, i went with my dear and zhaohuang to get his fish and turtle... my dear is so into fish nowadays that he had spent quite a lump sum on them.. now the fishes gets all his attention~ =(
hehe.. anyway tml i finally get a free day from my projects.. hope i would feel better and accompany my dear to go beach and collect rocks for his fishes~ (his dear fish again) =P gd nitE to aLL n tk caRE!

tired~sleepy~

its already 4.40am in the morning already and yet i am stilll awake here! finally, i had finished my individual part for my project after i left linxian's house at around 3.30am. i been rushing thru the 2 projects due tomorrow or rather later in the day. wondering how am i going to tahan the 6 hrs lecture i am going to have later, moreover i had an job interview in the evening! hope i can pass the day fast and be able to rest before i study for my speech test on wed. how i wish for break week soon but i dun think it be a real break with my final yr project going on.. siGh~ let me off~ i need some rest and have some fun!

mY vaL gifTs!

todaY was quite an enjoyable daY though we had to do project~ crazY or waD? hehe... actuallY we were chattINg the wholE afterNoon wiTh linxiAn's mUm about facial products and so on... was tempted to get the facial products as it was affordable and seems not bad since her mum has been at it for many years~ anywAY.. we spent the time eatINg roti prata, rojak, and tibits! guessed we would put on weight if we were to go on like this~ hehe! to be a fat pig is the last thing in my list or rather off my list! we did not do much discussion but instead we separate the work like 'fen zhu rou'! haha! soundS familiar?
afteR which.. i went to JP with my dear.. was supposed to get my Valentine gift which he owed me~ haha! went into The Wallet Shop and in the end, we got 2 wallets instead of one.. why? coS my dear wantEd one billabong one tOO! (caN see our new wallets from the snaPshoT though not clear)spenT quiTe a bomb in there anD went Perllini to geT my faV earring! finallY own it! haha.. so haPPy as i had aimed for it quite long time already.. hopE to get one with real diamond but was far off my budget about 100-200+... but liKe it anywaY cos it was from My dear~ thankS dear! muackZ! gtG sooN n starT on my project! my dear is stIll hungry aftEr spenDing the whole daY eating.. dunO wad his stomach is made of.. haHa! =P Off i go!

happIe beLated ValentinE daY to aLL!

as mY title suggested! hehe! weLL.. this yr valentine was very simple.. just spending some time with my dear shopping and went for dinner or rather supper? haha...we actually slept till 5++pm before we left to celebrate this valentine day... it was very hard for us to decide where to go as everywhere was so crowded.. we ended up at marina square when we wanted to go Fish & Co at bugis... but it was so crowded and hard to get parking space.. changed our mind then...i bought a shirt for my dear as i practically had no time to shop for one... so sorry dear that u had to make do with it.. settling for dinner was difficult as every place seemed to be fully booked.. we ended up at ms steamboat! haha.. weird right? anyway.. we ate only satay chicken and prawns only as it was quite late when we reached and they did not refill the foods anymore.. we ate for about 2hours~ tireD and fuLL~
i be doing projects again tml~ siGh.. been doing it for weeks and days without resting~ just slog and slog~ haiZ.. hope i caN havE a good resT again.. luckY we had this valentine day to rest.. if not, we would be at it again~ canT wait for the next holiday or our break week!
i was shortlisted to go for the 2nd interview by the MP... so scared.. duno whether wanna take up this job anot if i am selected.. seeMs tat i am quite negative about it since i went thru that terrible 1st interview... anyway.. i can only wait till tat day to come and i will see about it.... work work~

sad~ tears~ =..(

i just hate my day today.. feel so upset and everything seems to go wrong.. maybe i shouldn't do it but anyway i did.. i just hate the way it turned out.. just hope it's alright... no mood to do anything especially my undone assignments but i got to get going to survive.. jusT an idiotic daY.. i guessed its not meant to be spelt out here.. but i wish i could.. just to let u noe how i felt.. how i really felt..

interview~ interviews~

today was such a busy day.. i had one interview after one another.. the first one was my group interviewing a supervisor for our assignments.. the second one was a job interview...
the first one was abit lengthy as the supervisor went on n on... she shared with us too much that we were rushing for time... i kept looking at the clock as time pass by... after we interviewed her.. we rushed down for the job interview..
we were late as we also needed to take passport size photos... we went to jurong point and waited for some time for the photos to be developed.. we were definitely late and rushed to the kindergarten..
the interview was like shit.. the principal just called the 4 of us into her office and briefed us on the job requirements and the centre's background... after that.. she asked if we had any questions to ask.. some of my friends asked a few den she told us to pass her all our result slips n the form... sounds so stupid.. where gt interview like tat one.. initially, each person was interviewed individually.. after tat.. i tink she gt impatient and decided to brief us as a group.. just an idiot interview i got when i carried such heavy portfolio down and she refused to view it.. waste of my time n energy~ haiZ..
anyway.. i went jp to walk around with sihui and reached home not long ago abt 10+.. so tired after a long day... i fell aslp in the bus and almost missed my stop.. lucky i woke up in time.. tml is another long busy day again! nite!

upset~ =(

i had just taken my medicine.. but my fever still has not subside yet. haiZ..
today was quite a bad day for me n my grp of friends.. wenhui is suspected of chicken pox again for the 2nd time... so afraid she would contract it and our projects would be affected without her.. hope she will be fine after the observation... linxian was quite upset and abit agitated today.. i guessed she's quite stressed up abt our assignments..
i am so sorry tat she broke into tears cos we did not bring up the topic we felt like doing; during our meeting with the advisor... she felt like a fool but we did not meant to keep quiet cos we did not know what each other was thinking and did not dare to bring up the topic... things do not seem to go so smoothly for us today... the 2 of us were still on medication and not feeling well... hope tat we get well soon enough to return to our projects.. really got loads of it~
feeling tired.. got to slp.. tml still got my friend's 21st bday.. need to attend it no matter wad... tk care!

feeling much better~

i am feeling better after taking the medication but still having a bad running nose.. the smell of it makes me feel so sick... but anyway i went to sch today despite of the mc i had today... i only got 2hrs lesson so i might as well attend it..
i walked around the open house and it was so crowded... i went to my early childhood place and was happy to see that there have been so many changes over the last 2 open house i have seen.. this yr was much more nicer and grand.. we had video clips to show what our course is about and i saw some of my friends in it.. i saw myself too! hehe.. but i dun look good in it.. like so shag and blur... walked around the atrium to see the CCAs available.. but it seems too late as i am in 3rd year now.. haha! but it was quite interesting.. lots of stalls setup by the sec sch was quite innovative.. wanted to make one for myself and dear but they said they do not have anymore of the test-tubes. so sad =( sorry dear... i seemed to be like the yr 1s, wondering around.. i tink noone would guessed tat i am already in yr 3... haha! =P
after tat, i went to bugis to buy gift for one of my friend's 21st bday... it was quite fast tat i settled for one.. too tired to look around... got a cheap and nice slippers for $6 only.. great for casual wear! i went straight home after tat as i was still not feeling well... my poor dear was so tired after carrying is sis's laptop around...
i just finished my part for the group assignment.... hope its alright.. tml got to meet my adviser.. haiz.. hope she can help us.. our group need help!

wisH me gd healTh! hehe~

i got to see the doc finally after struggling with the sickness for about one week! i been so shag and weak.. been having headaches.. backaches.. wadever ache tat exists.. i have them all..haiZ~ after school.. i wanted to see doc and rest after medication.. but it was closed! siaNz.. go home rest and got to out again.. feeling so sick.. i was having fever when they took my temperature and made me waited for so long.. about 1hr.. and the fees went up to so high...$42! i tot i was broke but luckily my dad come and gave me $50.. actually i purposely took the medicine in his presence so tat i can "claim" it back..hehe! so noTTy..
i was given mc but i wanna go sch tml.. the doc advised me not to when i insisted... she was quite fierce about it.. but i went to eat mac after seeing the doc.. no food to eat already.. hope i would be alright.. (cross my fingers~)=)
got to go now.. go rest.. hope i get well!
last of all.. thanks to yee & sandy for visiting my blog! i will visit urs too! =)

=(

i am still having flu and it seems to be getting worse.. my fever comes on and off at times.. such a terrible feeling.. i am just so tired these few days... not been catching enough sleep.. i am going to slp soon and complete my assignment tomorrow morninG.. tk caRe!

shaG~shaG..shag...

i am now super shag. had not been catching a gd sleep for nites already.. i guess abt 3 days already.. i been so super busy these few days.. i had a pri sch gathering on fri, sec sch gathering on sat. projects for sun and today!
i had alot of fun on fri as we had not met up for about 7yrs.. i guess... such a long time den we met up.. alot of us couldn't recognise each other as we had all changed soo much~ haha! we could only recognise each other with the photos on our IC... but it was a nice one as we talked about the past, had dinner and shared about our current life... but too bad, alot of them had to go off early as they had other commitments.. so only left the few of us.. we went to my friend's friend pub in selegie and drank, played games and tok rubbish.. i tink we had taken about 3-4 jugs of alchohol.. but it was not very ex too~ i was a bit tipsy but was alright as i still could walk to a kopitiam quite far away and we ended up in marina south with my friend's bf car.. we had small talks as one of my guy friend was not in the form to play billard.. i was too tired and needed to go home.. i reached home about 4++am n fell aslp as i had to go out again on sat
for my sat.. it was a very busy day too! i woke up at 9++ and met up with yee chong n we wanted to buy gifts for weizhang's house warming.. we went to eat and walked ard.. i was approached by a gal for duno wad talent scout.. she kept bugging me to sign up but i refuse.. i was so hungry and tired then.. we spent a bomb on the gifts and was glad tat weizhang like it! hehe! we had fun, bbq, luffs and tease each other... just lots of laughter.. i helped in the fire starter and i was made a fool as i did lots of funny things.. but in the end.. we got the fire started... finally as we were all too hungry! we went to his house and rot for a while b4 playing games again.. initially i won some money but in the end, baq to square one... haiZ~ but anyway.. we stayed till about 6am in the morning as we chatted and teased each other... we decided to leave with weizhang as he had to report for duty ard 7+.. i was so tired tat i could not walked properly and managed to reach clementi interchange.. i ate very little and took cab home..too shag to even open up my eyes and take out my contact lens.. was struggling and went to bed fast..
i did nothing on sun and today except for projects, projects n projects.. so u can guessed how heavy our project was... so stressed with it.. still not done with it yet.. i am too tired to think now.. i even knocked my head against the bus seat as i dozed off on my way home... it was so loud tat everyone looked at me.. so paiseh.. i dragged myself home and watch tv a while and is going to dreamland soon.. i am still having slight flu and sore throat.. haIz.. hope i recover soon to take up further challenges in my projects again!