stIll sick..sianZ

haIz.. i am still sick now.. been sick for the past 2 days.. no time to see doctor man~ busy wif my assignments form day to night.. how i wish i can take a rest.. when i just got home after assignment discussion.. i am into another project again at home.. got to do it fast as my members seems to be doing it fast.. strEssed.. arGGhh... got tO slp.. tml got long day lessOn and will be meetINg my pri sch frenz! dunO how much they aLL hab changEd! on the lookouT for surpRise!

feelINg sick.. =(

not feeling very well.. was very tired today as i did not had a gd slp last night.. had a whole day of lesson..felt lethergic.. when i reached home.. i felt feverish and got slight flu.. sianz.. cant afford to fall sick now.. got loads of assignments waiting for me.. i am fully booked for this 2 weeks!! so busy schedule siaZ... gtg to slp soon.. afraid i will be sick.. need to pop some medicine~ stay healthy!

Busy daY~~

finaLLy one of mY new yR daY is sOo busY.. haha..sounDS so paThetic.. weLL today was supposed To meeT uP my friends to do assIgnMents.. BUt in the end, i was busY visiting my friends, relativES and had a small gatherinG with my aunt, uncle and cousinS...
my dear and i went to York Hotel to meet them up for hi-tea. i was expecting to meet my cousin's gf but she was busy and cant make it... quite disappointed.... the hi-tea was so-so only.. last time it was much more nicer and varieties.. buT that was more than 5 yrs ago.. things have changed.. economy was also bad.. thuS the chanGe.. my couSin is goinG in NS on weDnesdaY.. hoW time flies.. all Of us had growN up Now... anD i am goinG to be a fuLL-pledGed teachEr in a few months time.. *worried*
wenT to MinglI's house to baI niaN and my dear they all played blacK jack.. won quite a sum oF money.. i reachEd home and entertAined my relatives for a while and was off again...
i met some oF my sec scH friends anD played cards again... i won $7 in about 1 hr.. not so bad overall.. been losing some money here and there for the past few days...lucKy daY~~ hehe..
noW back to settlE my indiviDual assiGnment for tml for submiTioN... sO tired Now.. gtg to slP after readinG the thinGS my grp membErs had donE...feLt abit bAd foR leavINg them alone.. well.. bu expected this as it is just the 4th day of new year.. sure to have programmes goinG on.. dunNO y theY dun haB.. haiZ.. gD nite.. tml need to go for make-up lessoN~ so latE..

roTTing..

here i am.. still rotting in the afternoon.. still wondering if wanna go my uncle's place.. i am so moody n tired.. slept at 5 plus yesterday and woke up ard 9 plus..i was just like an idiot waiting for someone... but to realise that he was out there with others, enjoying himself... and i was there in bed.. waited for 5 hrs.. why...
i dun wish or feel like doing anything today.. two of my cousins wun be there.. it would be so sianz.. my bro also dun wanna go.. how? how? how? maybe stay at home to do my assignment... due on monday... boring.. why am i so bored.. feeling upset during chn new yr period.. aren't i supposed to be happy and enjoy this festive season.. what am i doing? what is happening to me??? haIz.. mY heart is scReAMing out louD in my hEart... yeT tearINg quietLy...
where were u when i needed u.. i just wanted someone by my side but u were not here with me.. u din give a damn when i gave u so many calls and sms.. u just din bother to care so much..

super duper boring on 2nd day of new yr.. siaNz!

so boring.. i am back home at 11pm... my whole family is super boring one leh.. i tink wad my cousin said wad right... they always say new year only once a year but yet all wanna go home at 10... we just started the game around 8 to 9 plus... so bored.. i had nowhere to go.. my dear also like not wanting to meet me.. sianz.. leave me alone to go home rot and so am i here... rotting... tomorrow going to my uncle place.. dun feel like going cos most of my cousin would not be there.. den wad for i go.. rot again? SIANZ! now i am just wait to get tired and sleep.. just rot n rot n rot.. CAn someOne pls inJect somE fUn into my liFe??!!! haiZ...

happY new Yr tO aLL!

I just reached home from my cousin's place... we played monopoly and cards... it was so bored.. my cousin even claimed that the whole family is sooo boring which made all of us laughed~ i tink i am super down on my luck cos of "it", i lose monopoly and even $2 in cards where we played only 10 cents.. buay tahan.. juz too bad..
so tired now.. tomorrow will be a busy day, "entertaining" those adults.. sianZ.. we caN only watchEd tv.. play gamEs and roT!!!
super Tired noW... gd niTe.. hopE my luck would be better tomoorw! wiSh me the best.. hehe!
happY new yr tO all and good health to aLL! haB a blessfUl n smooth-saiLing yR! Hope can collect lots of anG baos and giVe me some! =P

buzzzzziE~~~

jUz sooo busY with aLL the make-up lessoNS I had todaY... was quiTe tireD buT was happY to geT my 'ba gua' frOm my frienD, Linxian! hehe.. got somethinG to chEw at lasT.. be gettinG another pomelO again!! wooH.. seemS to be liKE christmaS.. xchangIng new yr 'giFts'? haha.. buT noT bad laH.. They r juSt too niCe ppl.. glAd to hab knowN theM or eLse i be stArving!
i cant staY onlinE too lonG todaY cos i still got to study foR tml's quiZ~ siAnz.. gOt to stUdy... Hope i bE abLe ot finiSh it fasT and undersTand weLL...
i had juSt helpeD my deaR to dyE his hair.. hE's still waiTing foR the develOPing timE... hOpe it turNs out weLL or i wiLL receive An earfuL froM hiM =P! wannA looK nice Nice on chN New yeaR daY~ vaIn vaIN~~ buT as lonG as hE likes it, iTs gooD! i aM so hunGry noW.. havE not takEn dinner yeT.. waiT~~~ waiT~~ got to wait for him! arGghh.. starVing! huRRy uP!
i wAs abiT upset thiS morninG.. on my waY to schooL.. i saw an civic ambuLance and two men trying to help aN old maN inTo the amBulance... thE old maN looked so fraiL anD helpLess.. gueSSed he musT havE hate himseLf for beinG a burdEn to otheRs... haiZ.. i better take good care of myself.. my familY hEalth historY iS super loNg anD negaTive... wiTh high blooD pressure.. cancer... diabetics... and the liSt goes on.. buT anyway i will definitely get high blood pressure as it runs in the famIly... juZ hope dun geT it sO sooN.. i stIll wanna enjoY lifE witH all The good food n tHings to dO! hOpe i wiLL start tO exerCise sooN anD mosT imptly.. duN alwayS dream of iT in mY sleeP onlY! exeRcise.. exercise! stiLL blOg agaIN wheN i havE time.. gOt to studY.. stUdy... i aM a hardwoRking gaL! =P

BugIs!!

i was at buGis this whoLle afternoon till now.. so tired... it was quite crowded as we went around looking for just a parking lot... anD hard to imagINe tat we spenT 1hr just to Find it! sO we went around in buGis villAge and shopped for mY bro's clothes.. in the end. hE managed to get a shiRt and 2 t-shiRts... hOpe he likeS it! buT i did not Get anyThing foR myselF.. humPh! =( saw alot of nice cloThes buT did noT get a Chance to touch them... haIz.. so saD n disaPPointed..
anYyway we met my mum and godma later in the evenINg... we walked in OG bugiS and i met one of my frenz, dawn there... we walked till quite late ard 10++ and reached home noT long agO.. thanKs to my deAR for fetChing us around.. buT feLt abiT bad coS sort of negLect hiM... LuckIly my bro was ard to accompany him anD chat with Him.. sO tired noW... tomolo stIll got clAss in the morninG.. and bLur me.. forgotten to bring mY casetTE tape whiCh i need tO hand tO my teachER.. goT to wastE $$ to buy anoTher one again.. siAnz! bluR me.... goT to slP.. nIte!

nice or bad day? haiZ...

why r some people so unsensible and unresonable to put the blame on others and thinks that they r always the right one... i hate people like that when they just vent angers to others without reason and it doesn't stop there... just hate the feeling of being a anger-trash can where they just throw their anger on others.... but of cos.. i dun hate him... becos of who he is... i duno who to blame or what i can really do.. just hate that feeling...
today was actually a nice day as i managed to spent time with my mum and godma... i helped them to dye their hair as new year is approaching soon.. but they were quite disappointed cos the colour which the salesgal had picked did not turned out well.. i guessed it was not gold enough... we went to eat and spent some time walking around to get the atmosphere of new year occasion.. but duno why.. as i grow older.. new year was no longer a so-happy occasion already.. yet it seems to be chore now... but anyway just be gald tat i still can receive ang-baos now.. hehe!
i managed to do-up the list of childcare centres for my ampyc project... finallY.. i have dragged it enough thru last night... supposed to be done by yesterday but i guessed i have totally placed it at the back of my mind... duno why but i suddenly remembers it..
new year is approaching in a few days time.. yet i have not paint my room nor pack it... oH goD! i am going to have a busy time on wednesday...having to clear all my "treasures"! hehe..
dun think too much first.. tommorrow shall go out with my bro to get his new year clothes! hope to enjoy 1st! muaCkz!

changes n changes in life...

today was a short day in school from 9 to 1pm only.... did not know where to go after school... den decided to go dental clinic with my buddy.. haaha.. it has been a very long time since i went dentist... i guess abt 6-7 yrs after pri school.. but spent quite a bomb on it too.. $90!! hohoHo... brokE liaO... i am already poor even b4 new year.. hehe.. but it was quite painful loH.. i was likE want to screAm but canT.. oh yAh.. i was so surprised with the technology there.... the dentist was able to show me my teeth using a scope and showed it on a lcd screen.. waH.. firsT time i see so clearlY of my teeth froM the inside..
i bought new yr clothes and some barang barang too... but my parents say my cloThes not niCE.. oHH... *so sad*... my bro said noT bad but Maybe he did noT wan to add On my agony... hehe.. my deAr shaked his head toO when he first saw It.. haIz... anyway.. i bought a small pouch for myself and a tissue holder cum coin purse for my aunt toO.. hopE she will Like it!
i had a long journey home from bt merah central... and took the same bus few yrs back when i was working at WOS there... on my journey back, i realised that alot of things had changed... the buildings and environment.. some had more buildings and others were demolished... there were so many constructions going on to make way for new buildings.. i guessed i have changed too after 3yrs... the bestway which i used to work at was closed down too.. a new department store Ck was opened nearby... some shops were still there while some had moved or even new shops had opened... but luckily, my fav beancurd stall was still around.. hehe... got to eat one of my fav longan beancurd! *yuMMy*
weLL... things have chanGed.. environmentS.. and of cos huMAns too... but i guessed i am still the same except that my appearance is different now.. buT i do hOpe that somE thingS would not chanGed if noT everythinG would just be Memories onlLY.... buT one thinG for sure.. our friendships, family n relative ties is something that we cannot changed forever.. loves them very much although hard to express myself.. sO i am workinG hard now to proVide for theM! loVeS aLL of u out theRe toO!

Juz my thouGhts..

i had a chat with a few of my close friends this afternoon.. we were talking about this gal who been attached with her bf for a few years already.. but her life seems to be so empty besides at home- household chores, sleep, watch tv, play with younger sis and meet up with bf.. even when they meet up, they dun really go 'par toh' just eat downstairs for dinner and go nearby shopping mall to walk...
we encouraged her to open up her social circle and got to make more friends... no matter wad, one person cannot just live in her own world and bf's world.. i believed that one should not neglect his/her friends though he/she is attached... bue she's different.. her life was like that since she was young.. we hope to help her as we realised that her bf seems to have changed and not so loving with her anymore ever since an incident happened... her bf was instead so outgoing and always out with his friends... we were afraid her bf might start to find her boring.. moreover we r going to graduate soon in a few months time.. life as a teacher is on doubt plain as we will be facing staffs, children and parents... her bf would be out in the workforce, getting in touch with the society and make more friends.. we were worried for her... hope she would understand our intentions in helping her and not cope up at home everyday for the rest of her life.. be exposed to the world outside.. everyone need their own social support too...
well.. life is not only about growing up, receiving an education, getting married, have chidlren and die off like that... we have lots of things in life that we can do.. it all depends if we r willing to take the initiative to do it anot... although i am just an individual.. i hope to achieve something in life too.. life is lots more besides the ups and downs..

homeWork~!~!

I had a long day today... from 9 to 5... almost fell asleep and hit my head on the table during afternoon class.. lucky noone saw me.. haha.. if not, so paiseh...
i had quite a bad day as well.. i was scolded once i reached home.. my dad was in a foul mood.. everyone got a scolding from him.. haiZ.. duno what has got into him.. i told my dear and he just sayang me...
i was packing my notes just now and realised that my notes were all mixed up.. did not know which one was for which module.. y am i so untidy now? i think i am stressed.. tat's y. my schedule is also very packed as well.. going to have a hard time..
so sorry dear.. i cant help him with his hair as i got very early morning class tomorrow... will help him tomorrow! hehe!
i just downloaded some old songs which i used to love alot.. listening to it now.. reminds me of the old times.. well, seems tat i am old.. haha.. i guess i got to admit it now since i have just hit 20.. oHhh.~~ haha.. a young lady right now! =P
later got to do my homework for tomorrow class.. sounds hardworking? yesH.. i am! hehe! =P seeyA! deaR.. deaR...

shoping for new yr clothes.. movie... broke..broke broke..

i have been shopping this whole afternoon with my bro for new year clothes.. yet did not find anything for myself nor my bro..
we went several shops and my bro tried many shirts & t-shirts at one store... in the end, we did not buy anything.. the shop assistant looked so surprised! but we felt so bad about it.. haiZ.. so baD leH.. heehe
my dear called me and met us up.. we went for dinner and i gave a big treat to my bro.. we went sakae sushi.. i am broke.. we spent abt 50 bucks in all.. quite cheap lah as we were soo full... we wondered around and did not know what to shop since we decided to go bugis this weekend to shop for clothes..
so in the end.. we went to watch show.. got 2 free tickets as i paid using posb card.. there were only 3 of us.. left 1 ticket.. did not want to waste it... so called my mum.. she came last minute as we were not able to contact her at all.. we watched Ju-On 2.. quite scary and my poor dear's hands must be screaming for help.. hahaha! poor boY... we went home and i changed my clothes.. went to his house in the end.. so tired now.. tomorrow hab to wake up at 7am.. oh god! got to go.. go find zhou gong already! hehe.. bye! night!

blog blog blog!!

i am able to see my own blog finally... duno what have caused the problem... anyway i have just reached home after a long day.... finally my project will be submitted tomorrow after a week of hard work! siGh! can tk a break temporarily first! i was too tired to blog yesterday.. been facing the pc for several hrs before i can hit the on/off button... was typing and thinking for info... cracking hard at my brain.. had a long talk with yeechong, my sec sch frenz.. its a long time i had a nice chat with him.. actually i called him up as i was quite emotional... my poly frenz had a talk to me on the net and i was feeling a bit down so felt like chatting to someone.. we chatted till quite late and i needed to catch some slp..
today, i had a short day from 10 to 1... i went with sihui and linxian to valley point to buy text... duno why my school did not order for us and we had to travel there personally to purchase it.. but lucky we were able to get it as ours were the last few left... but we had difficulties in searching for the place.. our dear linxian led us to the wrong place.. it was such a hot weather.. worse still.. we met a tiko pek who talked rubish to us... nothing but dirty thoughts were running thru his mind.. how disgusting he was! so fedup at the thought of him...
we sat at the starbucks or coffee bean.. and had a long talk.. it has been a long time since we sat down and chat.. we been so busy with life and projects.. but felt so guilty towards wenhui for leaving her to finalise it.. so sorry.. hope she can join us the next time as she had been missing out of our conversation for several times already.. hope to spend more time together b4 we graduate in april... but all my frenz have been great.. they have walked thru with me in my life.. thanks! especially my sec sch frenz.. they would always be in my mind no matter where, what and how..

working on.. and on..

i am so sleepy now.. i have just completed a small part of my proposal and writing disc for linxian now..i gt to meet them early in the morning at 9am though my lesson starts at 2.. i am so tired.. just wish to hand up this proposal and take a short break temporarily.. been working at it for days and nights already...
today was my first day in school after 2 months holiday.. it was a tiring long day as we received loads of notes and assignments.. only the first day and we were overwhelmed with all these.. haiz.. cant imagine the rest.. but this sem is very short for me as my poly life would end in april..i do not have any exams for this last sem.. everyone would say i am soo lucky to be without exams but i doubt so... got to start searching for a job soon and my life as a carefree teenager/ young adult ends here... i would be entering a new phrase of life like a reborn baby... my guy frens would be serving ns and i am out in the workforce.. cant imagine how life would be like.. hope time can pass slowly as i cant deny that i am afraid to enter this new phrase of life... got to stop here.. need to catch some sleep before the sun gets up.. gd nite.. hope tomorrow would be better but i got speech training and the lecturer is like sh*t.. hope i can survive thru her module peacefully.. wish me luck.. last of all wish micheal a happy bday! bye

project.. project.. project..

why my blogs are still not up??... duno wad happen to blog spot... but anyway i have just finished typing my project for my group.. tommorow got to meet up again to discuss as we did not really do much work just now.. we went to search for journals again and printed them out.. we splitted the job again as we concentrate on our own part individually..
feeling tired now.. just reached home around 9++ from school.. i did not have any lessons today yet went back sch to do project..siaNz.. wenhui left 1st wif her hubby.. left only 3 of us and we decided to do it in school and chatted for few hrs.. surfed net after bathing till now... gt to sleep soon.. tml gt lesson from 9 to 5.. den duno will stay back until wad time.. hope wun be too late cos still got lesson on wednesday.. tomorrow will be our first day of school.. hope everyone have not changed but tat's quite hard too.. be busy scanning thru frenz and might get surprises from them! hehe.. nitE!

project proposal.. finally..

i just finished my part of the project proposal.. need to discuss and collate the whole project by tomorrow.. very tired now and not feeling well.. having migraine since evening but forgotten to take medicine... we went to malaysia again and i just bought a pair of sandals... did not spend much as we ate only KFC and they bought some discs... i was so quiet throughout the journey as my head was feeling so tight and heavy.. goign to take medicine soon.. guessed i did not have enough sleep as i 'ton' the whole night yesterday...
duno y the blogger was down but hope it will be up soon... gd nite.. *yawN*

Ohh.. sch's restartinG!!

i am soo tired.. juz woke up after a deep slp.. i juz reached home this morning ard 11++.. i had not slept the whole nite.. was at vincent's house chatting and laughing for hrs.. waH.. think caN break recoRd.. dunO if anyone had tried laughing continously for more than 5 hrs+... so funnY.. he's forever a joker and makes us laughs until mouth can cramp.. but very tired too.. me and darren did not even had a minute of sleep as it was quite cramp and stuffy..guess the air-con was not working well... worse still i wore jeans and i was like perspiring all over... but its quite fun since it has been a long long time we had a gathering and enjoyed ourselves like that... sch's restarting tml.. we will be busy all over again.. those studying ones.. busy wif final yr project or attachment.. in ns one r in camp or course... hope we will have a chance to meet up again like this... later got to do my project.. haven touched it at all...hope i can do it quick and settle it.. tk care all f renz! gd luck to those in final yr!

shoPPing!! saleS eveRywhere!

actually today is a boring day because we had to meet up and do our group assignments... i was sighing all the while as i got to meet them at 10am.. in the end i reached at1pm.. haha.. lucky i reached there late cos they have been toking all the few hrs back... waste of time.. hehe.. but the journey was suffering.. the bus air-con broke down and alot of ppl were squeezing as it was dismissal time for schools... i was like going to faint with all the perspirations of those sch boys.. yucks! in the end.. got down at clementi and took a cab instead.. haiZ.. waste money again but the weather was just intolerable... the cab was also like stuffy and hot as the uncle told me the weather was 33 degree... sooo high temperature... but only wished to reach sch library soon..
things were quite smooth as we managed to find the journals quickly.. so we were able to leave around 3+, heading to town...
orchard was quite crowded as we had to squeeze our way through.. but we just walked around like window shopping.. as the closing time was near, we managed to get some things at robinsons and watsons with sales going on! but din really spend much as they din cost much... but quite happy with it lah.. long time since i went out and managed to get some things... hehe
supposed to meet some frenz but cancelled.. preferred to meet up tml.. hope we can meet up! miss them alot! their rubbish too.. hehe..

ouT of towN~

haha.. today is indeed a long day.. i was supposed to go out with my pri sch frenz but i 'fang ta fei ji'.. haha.. feel so bad.. but of cos i had a real good reason.. i had to help paint my house... my dad and bro were busy painting the windows and definitely i had to help out and had to reject my frenz at the very last minute.. guilTy maN... while painting, my dear suddenly gave me to call to ask me go malaysia.. so sudden..
i was quite worried initially..afraid of the traffic; jams at causeway & most impt our safety.. but did not want to disappoint him also... hehe.. most funny was.. i informed my mum and asked her if she wanna to join us on thinking that we be going alone.. haha.. she was so quick and excited that she took out the cards and pack her things... but my dear called me later to tell me that we r going in a grp with junyuan they all.. which means i had gave my mum false hope.. hard to tell her this.. she was indeed disappointed but i promised to go with her again the next time...
when we reached.. i realised tat the shopping centre did not change much as i have been there b4 many years back... but we reached abit late and they spent quite some time choosing games.. thus we did not have a chance to walk ard much.. but anyway.. i gt a game for my bro.. hope he likes it..
after tat, we ate very nice food.. lots of seafood with clayfish, crabs and prawns.. ate until sooo full... but the sugar cane juice jar was so large... haha.. lucky i ordered a medium one for myself...
haha.. we almost headed to kl cos my dear went the wrong way back... we had to ask the petrol station man for direction but ended with a joke which they created... juz sounds so stupid...
we went to boon lay touring around to countdown... just to find their jeanette aw... haha... in the end.. our countdown was at the rooftop of the carpark... haha.. worst countdown of my life man...
but had lots of fun and laughter along the way... went to micheal place there to chit chat as well.. i guessed everyone was tired and we headed home... feeling so tired now... gt to slp..
but sch is starting sooN.. haiZ...